Pissed!

I feel like my grades suck. I tried really hard to adjust to this school, maybe I took to long and in the end it bit me in the behind. My study habits have gotten a lot better and my grades definitely showed it, however, it seems like I was lacking and my attempts were not good enough. I am pissed at my self. Even though class is over. I still may keep this blog in order to vent. It will be cool that know one else will be reading it1!

Finals Week!

So, it is the end of finals week and I am turning in last minute assignments; including this blog LOL. This semester, I have missed 2 classes and I found that that was the worst idea I ever made. Honestly, I think I only missed one class and came really late to another one. Anyhow, I have no clue how I missed one particular assignment and that bothers me soooooo much. Hopefully I have time to work it out because my grades are critical to me at this point. Jesus! take the wheel!

Food Poisoning

I felt horrible 4:45am, this morning. it was the worst pain and nausea I have ever had. I usually have an okay pain tolerance. I honestly have no clue why it happened and what caused it. This it what makes it worse, Not knowing. I've never dealt with this before so I have no way of knowing how long it will last.... Hopefully soon!

Last Day of Class

Today was the last day for ENGL 1050!! Honestly, it doesn't even seen like it has been that long. I guess it hasn't been all bad. It was a struggle and adjustment for me at first but, I'm happy everything worked out. I hope to God my grade is okay. I honestly know that have been sucking at these blogs and that they are worth majority of the point. Hopefully what I gave to this class has been enough.

PERSONAL LIFE

My personal life has been pretty good, I am really just trying to put all of my efforts into my classes, its my first year here and I want my GPA to be atleast a 3.0. This will give me a good foundation to have in continuing on at this university. I've also become really involved in this community bible study called Impact on campus. I am just trying to get my spiritually life together so that it can soon help my academic life LOL. Of course there is a lot more than just academics as to why I want to have a strong spiritual relationship with God.

BLOGGING

It has been an absolute struggle trying to get these blogs done! It sucks because they are worth the most points. Blogging is hard for me because, I like to focus more on the assignments, such as the papers, and try to get them done and I forget to blog. I never know what to say anymore and my grade is definitely suffering because of this. Please pray that I can get this stuff together.

Home at Last

This pat weekend I finally got to go home, Detroit! It was everything I needed, being home, im a familiar place with familiar people. I didn't even have to do much, just being in my comfort zone gave me the energy I needed in order to return back to school to be successful. The down fall, I didn't realize there was a test I needed to get prepared for over the weekend, I wasn't even aware there was a study guide, I arrived back to school late on Monday, which was the day I had the class that I needed to prepare for the test. Thank God my Professor is letting me take the test next Monday, God has really been on my side lately. I didn't even get to revise my two narratives!! Hopefully it is easy to catch up. Today is going to be a focus and dedication day. No excuses. Period.

Narratives

I have had a lot of fun writing these narratives in class. I think what I like the most if that is the fact that you are free to write about whatever you want, however you want and that gives me a sense of control! I really don't know what the feeling is, the narrative assignments, remind me of my childhood, I use to "write" movies or plays, of course I didn't really know how to write a movie however, every scene I would write, I would envision the scenes coming to life as if it were a movie. That's kind of what I did when I wrote my fictional narrative, the only down fall is that there is a page limit and word count requirement, so its hard for me to try to pack all of my ideas. This was my main struggle but I look forward to revising them and seeing how they both turn out.

Stressing OUT! The pressure is on

The pressure is on and the heat is blazing!!! I think this semester is finally hitting me, paper after paper, blog after blog, exam after exam, after exam and all over again. I think I need to turn up the heat myself!! I guess my focus has been kind of off but again, I don't think it has, I get really over whelmed and I know what I have to do it just figuring what to do first and for how long should I do it before I move on to the next thing. its a problem that I have been trying to over come and trying to figure out why I get soooooo overwhelmed with assignments and for others it is so easy. I think its because I make excuses and I think that assignments will take less time than it actually does. I sometimes feel like a slacker but I swear its never my intentions but, from this day forward, there will be a change and I will be more focused. I declare it and it is done!

Lolita

         As a requirement for class, we were assigned to write a paper about a person or event that has influenced our lives. The person I chose to write about was my aunt Lolita. It is very easy to explain why my aunt has influenced my life but, finding away to present her in an artist way while writing this paper is tricky. When writing, we have to pick a tone, audience, message, mood, etc. and its all good but of course I would like to be crafty with this paper, however it is very tricky (at least to me). For some people, this is an easy and effortless task and sometimes I feel that it is the same for me when I write papers. I guess its just the anxiety of knowing someone is reading and critiquing your craft and potentially not like something that you've worked so hard on and love. It sometimes feels like little by little we are being conformed to think and write how other people prefer us to write. But again, who knows?, that's just how Shayla's Complex Mind operates.

Home Sick/ Boyfriend Sick

Though classes have begun only three short weeks ago, to me it seems like it has been an eternity. It's quite weird actually because, I once spent 3months away from home and 2 years away at school (Bowling Green State University). I guess its just an adjustment to a new school, or maybe the fact that I have a boyfriend at home whom of course I've grown attached to. Our relationship is so fresh, almost four months to be exact, and the distance is driving me nuts! And my boyfriend, of course. I am actually missing my parents, which isn't surprising, however, distance is usually good for us. I guess I've just been in a funk and it's really hard to shake these days. I am trying very hard to just focus on school, I'm getting it together. I guess actually writing my thoughts on paper helps to put everything on the table, and being able to find the best way to cope with this home sickness. On top of everything, my sister is pregnant and I am missing out on her planning her baby shower and the exciting  things that are happening to her while she is pregnant. It really sucks, especially because I missed the birth of my youngest niece and my oldest niece's 4th birthday. I know I am attending school to provide a potential future for myself but, it is definitely a huge sacrifice. All I can do is give my situation to God and let his plan be fulfilled in me.

Thoughts on Thoughts and Writing 1050

Thoughts and Writing 1050

      My initial feelings about being enrolled into the course Thoughts and Writing 1050 was that I did not want to continue being a student for this course. There was nothing against Professor Moses, nor my peers, the issue was with the Western Michigan University. I know this is kind of a bad enemy to have, however, I have good reasoning. The reason i did not wish to continue with this class, and the reason i have beef with the university is because, I am a transfer student and i have already completed and passed the writing course at my previous university. While completing this course, it took up two semesters that included completing two portfolios! Within those portfolios were 5 essays in each, each ranging from 5-7 pages and a couple 11 page papers but, no big deal! It all was a waste of my time because i have to pass Western Michigan's writing class and all my money spent was a waste of my time, so, thank Western Michigan University. Besides that beef i have, i like the Thoughts and Writing Course 1050, i especially enjoy reading various poems because sometimes poems can be confusing for me to understand what exactly the message is, reviewing the poems help me to become better in some sense. Thank you Professor Moses, Keep up the good work!

Introducing... Shayla!! :)

Hi Everyone!

My name is Shayla Smith, I am a transfer student at Western Michigan University, I transferred from Bowling Green State University. I took a semester off of school for personal reasons. However, I back and ready to attack knowledge head on!! it my sound weird to some but I just want to be proud of myself and I believe the best way to make this happen is through education. I know its not the only way but I think its a huge part of success. Knowledge is power!